June 25, 2012: About two weeks ago we went to visit Sy and I witnessed one of the saddest things yet. Fun loving Sy was barely up for company and was not in the mood to have any fun. In a matter of a week, his mood has made a drastic change. It was so hard to sit there with him at lunch while he sat there in silence. Emotionally you can tell he has changed and is becoming depressed. It broke my heart seeing the sadness in his eyes. I would do anything to take his pain away, bring a smile to his face and a happiness back to his eyes. Since this last visit he has started to detach himself from people and doesn't want any visitors. I so badly want to be selfish, not listen to his requests and soak up every minute with him in hopes of making him laugh and making more more memories with the kid I love so much...but if he doesn't want visitors then I guess I will have to obey his request and hold my breath until his mind changes.
As I pray for Sy, I pray that nobody ever has to witness a child fight cancer.